This is a quick post, but I just had some random thoughts.
Have you ever felt just not good enough?
All the time.
I’m not sure what it is, but my entire life I’ve felt like I wasn’t good enough at anything. There has, really, never been a point in my life or a thing I Can point to where I felt like what I did was good enough. Good enough for whom? Thats a great question.
So, I’m sort of a jack of all trades, meaning I have tried a bunch of different things, but I’ve never been great at any one thing. Like, I always admired Steve Kerr growing up. He could do nothing on a basketball court but shoot. But he was often the best shooter in the NBA. For me, the things I’ve done have ranged from “Meh” to “Alright” but never, “YOOOOOOOOOOOOO!” This bothers me a lot.
A whole whole lot.
Like, a whole lot.
Because I’ve had a greatness desire as far back as I can remember. I wanted to be a great singer, well I cant really sing. I love the guitar and wanted to be the best guitar player ever, but after 10 years I struggle with beginner chords. It isnt even for lack of effort, I put hours and hours and hours and entire days into practice, but it just hasn’t worked. There has been no progress.
Why would anyone keep trying if they already knew the outcome?
I don’t know.
Maybe i was destined to be one of those late bloomer type fellas. If thats the case, I’ll own it.
I’d really hate to be one of those never bloomed.